As usual, the introductory post

Salam and hi. 

I don't know where to begin. Well, first off, I am a mother of 2 boys. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2014 and since the commencement of treatment, I have been stuck in between the two extremes of emotions, which meant my mood has been stagnant for almost 3 years now, with depression paying me a visit now and then, but never the manic phase.

Hence the title; Maman In The Middle. Maman is French for 'mom' and well, in the middle is exactly how it felt being me these days. 

I no longer enjoy living, but I am also not depressed. I just feel...empty and hollow, as if nothing could ever bring me joy again.

But bipolar is not my name. 

I am me, and this illness DOES NOT define me.

I believe writing about it would help me find myself again, in a way or another, as well as this online course on psychology that I just started taking. 

Wish me luck!

Regards, 

S.